I’ve Decided to Die

Suddenly, I’ve decided to die

Instead of just gradually decaying.

It has to be a conscious decision

For death, I believe,

Must be a glorious happening

A powerful blast

Like the birth of a star

A majestically painful feeling

Like bones growing under a teenager`s skin.

And, by dying, I mean not living wastefully

By skipping the mediocre sensations

Of inhumane segregations

The miser human pursuits

That fills the pockets and kills the souls.

The endless agony of dissatisfaction

Swimming in a pool of dejections.

The eternal struggle to be accepted

By self-non-accepting, unacceptable beings.

The ordinary manipulations of indigent greedy

Begging for crumbles of rotting matter.

The overdoses of egocentric expression

Craving for ephemeral applauses.

The unmelodic tunes of religious wars

Blinding people into an oblivious state of pseudo-brotherhood.

The gloomy loneliness of hurtful relationships

Silently sucking the life from each other’s misery.

The anguish of not being who we truly are

In a deceptive metamorphosis of ignorant devolution.

So, as quick as a fleeting shooting start

From the balconies of my existence

I’ll jump into the open abyss

And glide on the perennial ether

Of infinite joyfulness

Unfathomable freedom

And holistic awareness.

For death, I believe,

Must be a glorious happening.

How to cite this Freeing Poem:

Cargnin dos Santos, Tadany. I’ve Decided to Die.